it’s almost 8pm. i ate dinner a three hours ago and now, i’m sitting cross-legged on a gray faux-leather upholstered chair at my favorite bakery in the world (paris baguette, how i’ve pined for you these past 19 months!) blogging as the automatic glass door slides open and shut every five minutes behind me and piano jazz lingers above me.
oh yeah–and i’m in hospital garb.
i was ecstatic to find that the hospital i’ve been receiving treatment at has a paris baguette on the first floor of the building. and an optometrist down the block where i was able to get a pair of prescription glasses for under $30 usd. and that the hospital allows its patients to leave the building for short periods of time when they’re not receiving treatment. and my roommate–an elderly lady who has been in and out of the facility since july after two leg surgeries–is as sweet as ever; the hospital food is great; the doctor is a bit wacky but fun and kind.
these are all little things but the bigger things–being able to undergo surgery with such short notice; being able to afford the surgery and hospital stays; getting multiple health issues checked into and treated through various means–have meant so much more.
this whole korea thing has really been a blessing. everything has somehow managed to fall into place despite lack of control or foresight or ability or resources. and now i am finally starting to believe that, yes, coming to korea was the right thing to do.
i’m still not sure why God has worked things in my life this way. i don’t understand why it had to be so hard these past couple months, or why he would choose to bring healing to me through such costly means when i know that with his mere word or will i can be made whole again. it’s hard, when i get lost in thoughts like these. i sometimes feel distant from God during those moments.
but for now, i am thankful for this moment. i’m thankful to have been able to see my family and a few of our dear friends, for all the good food i got to taste, and for moments like these where i can sit at paris baguette, enjoying a kiwi smoothie and blogging to help me process all of this. i am hopeful that much better days are ahead. (:
a year in africa 